Long time no see....

heyyyyyy

my bad on the total none-bloggage, but life has been epicly insane. the twilight shifts in work have started early, meaning a few nights a week ill be working till 8. im also contracted to work weekends now, oh the joys, and last weekend i covered for a work mate and worked her weekened - no worries - 'cept i had to work 7 days without a day off - and on my 7th day i worked till 9pm - argh - that pretty much killed me off. On top of that, ive been decorating and completely over hauling my bedroom into my version of the dream room - this means my diet has gone to crap - food has pretty much been eat whatever was quick and simple and easy and took no longer than 5 minutes to prepate - pretty much lots of unhealthy rubbish. and it gets worse - drinks have been of the caffinated energy variety. but seriously, all ive been doing is working and working on my room. at one point last week i couldnt actually lift my arms - that was bad. my muscles hated me for days - and i hated them equally for complaining. when i got home from work on wednesday (i really had to think about that - i have no idea how what day it is - my 7 day stint caused that) my back felt broken - painting walls, moving furniture,working and doing delivery around it seriously didnt help. :o\

day 1 - i moved a wardrobe out of my room ON MY OWN. moved my bed across the room ON MY OWN. moved the television.

day 2 - i took the door off my cupboard behind my tele (see below on pics) and sorted the cupboard - tons of my toys from when i was a kiddie and all my kids books - serious blast from the past. specially when i found my memory boxes i kept up till i was about 15/16.

------------nothing, i had to wait for a day off--------------

day (lets just call it 3 to keep it simple) - ventured in to town to b and q - got paint, and curtains, mirrors,and general bits for my room. painted one wall.

day 4 - painted the rest of the walls - each getting 2 coats each.

day 5 - PAIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNN

-----waiting for a day off again------

day 6 - gloss paint - alll done - things put up on walls.curtains up. new sexy duvet cover put on.


all in all it took me 3 weeks - because some days i just couldnt possibly fit any labour in around work. anyway piccies - :)

before;

now :) :) :) ;

you have no idea how proud of myself i am :) :)

and i pinky promise to get back on diet on monday - and also before i go - i got to see john bishop on wednesday... sqqquueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!

peace x

short but sweet.

hey all.

just a quick post to say i lost 0.75lbs last week - i know right, pitiful - the only thing i can put it down to is that im not a good sleeper and that week insomnia really bit hard. the reason i havent had time to post a decent blog then, or now, is im decorating my bedroom - pictures and details to follow.

peace out x

The 'C' word.

Hey all.

so this week ive continued with my angelic behaviour when it comes to eating and exercising, i didnt exercise thursday or friday after work as i was sleep-sie. You could argue i was being lazy - and frankly i wont disagree, im just biding my time really and waiting for the new just dance game to come out - i figure thats gonna make me one play it more as im a bit sick of the songs on the current one,sigh. so anyway - ive been good, and ive worked out, and ive noticed one of my pj tops is hanging a bit looser as it was fitted before, similarly i think my work pants are starting to hang a lil better - good times. So really, this week all i was really hoping for was to lose the 3.75 lbs i gained last week. so im pretty happy with my result this week;

oooooh yeah :)

honestly, im feeling pretty motivated right now, i dont know where its come from but im not gonna argue with it :) im allowing myself to eat chocolate one day a week - and granted i go to town on that one day but come sunday im straight back on the healthy eating/exercising wagon - and i feel really good too, i guess i forgot how much eating healthily effects your mood during my fall from grace. :)

So i figured id make this blog about the 'C' word. Its the one that fills me with dread when i hear it, its Christmas.

Dont get me wrong, im not a grinch. I love christmas, its just that i loathe it in equal measures. I love christmas once its christmas eve and im home from work and the presents are under the tree and everythings lovely. I loathe the run up - working in retail will do that to you - and i loathe the implications it has on my diet as i know i wont be sticking to points over xmas, but xmas seems to start mid october now - this year inm DETERMINED to be good up untill christmas eve, which is slightly difficult when i work till 9 most nights close to christmas, and im stressed beyond belief as customers really start to mouth off at you - uck - be nice this year, be nice to the staff in shops - it really isnt their fault, they are trying really hard. please? for lil ole' me?

On the plus side, this week i started my christmas shopping. I know right?? Thing is, ive decided to split it up over the next few months so im spreading the cost but also once the festive season really starts to kick in i tend to live at work. Soooo.... i ordered my brother this;

a JEDI BATH ROBE!! you heard me, A JEDI BATH ROBE!! you knows thats awesome!! now, my brothers 32 but has pretty much grown old and not up - he will adore this!! im also gonna buy him a cheap lil light saber, lmao - and a crate of toffifee sweets from work - 10 boxes in a case - sorted :) Mums getting the glee box set (...uck) and a gold chain :) and i dont know what to get my dad.... hmmm.... suggestions on a post card please?

For me, this is also the season of Lush.

i buy lush bath things twice a year, i tend to spend all my birthday money on them in may, and then as soon as the christmas stock hits down i order loads of it. This week i got an email saying they had arrived. Sooo...ive ordered LOADS. :) christmassy and none christmassy  - the christmas lush things are the only thing that help me feel remotely christmassy when im in a foul mood after a bad busy day in work - hopefully were gonna take on some christmas temps this year that will make life much easier - but i also have a tradition - come home from work on christmas eve, i have a lush bath with a glass of wine and my book, i put on the pj's and i chill. sweet. :) i got my box of lush goodies on thursday and i had a lush bath the same night - using one called Twilight which was so stunning its hard to put into words. It turned the water,pink,then pink and blue then eventually a lovely purple/night sky colour and it smelled soooo good :) really chilled me out, and the smell lingered on my skin throughout yesterday :) and my skin feel soft :) ok - enough lush ramblings.

i guess thats really it now, i keep saying to myself that im gonna make an effort to post a blog more than once a week - but as a rule, when i really sit down to think about it -

my life just isnt that exciting for me to post more than one a week.

hmmmm - well, on that depressing,dark clouded, empty selfed note ( i joke, i joke... i kid,i kid ;) ) i shall end this blog :)

                                 peace out people x and thanks for reading :) x

You CAN NOT be SERIOUS!!

Are you actually serious?? Following my blog post last week regarding the key to weight loss being exercise, i thought id follow up that breakthrough with this little gem of scientific expertise;

Once a month, my body becomes retarded.

Feel free to feel offended by my use of that word, i understand - just dont tell me if you are :) coz i wont listen :)

hello, totm - hello cravings from hell - hell week of huge disgusting struggles.

This week i have;

• exercised almost every day (i had 2 rest days, one when i was ill with pains and once when i was at work)
• stuck to my points rig-id-ly - i mean, ive been a ww saint. seriously,  i deserve to be canonised by the ww fairies.
• managed to diet around a stupid shift at work which meant starting at noon and working till 8pm because i was putting Halloween decs up - i got home at 8:30 and still stuck top my points.

and what do i get for my troubles?

a 3.75lb gain!!

mel is not a happy bunny, and is feeling incredibly fed up at the moment - not helped by monthly depression anyway.

also not helped by inspection day yesterday at work which meant me being on till being oh so happy happy happy with everyone when all i really wanted to do was curl up into a ball and sob.also not helped by my being angry at a friend of mine, who was suspended from work (didnt tell me this) and has now left (didnt tell me this either) and i found out through another friend - arrrggghhhhhh! dick - still, hell hath no fury like a mel scorned

see? scary isnt it? lmao - i dont know why i put this picture on here, a break in the fed up photos i guess? this was my testing the lighting on my webcam piccie :)

This weeks been challenging on multiple levels - infact the levels are, well, two fold ;) - the shifts ive been working have been all over the place with that stupid 'til 8 shift thrown right smack in the middle, and also - this weeks product focus (we have to sell something every week on the till) was raspberry ruffles - oh my word - my absolute fave - and despite telling everyone how nice they are allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll day long, and ive stayed strong all week and havent bought a bag ........ mums picking us up a bag (to share) today :) good times.

i also have vodka and a blue wkd with my name on it - and x factor - i know i know, looking at me im not entirely sure i jump out as the x factor type, but im a massive fan - and im actually the only one out of my friends who likes it :) i even downloaded the Olly Murs single the other day  :P i have quite an eclectic taste in music really - flicking through my ipod theres metallica,acdc,nirvana,greenday - then theres 30 seconds to mars,adam lambert,oasis,travis and the verve - then theres things like robbie williams,take that and olly murs. lol. oh - and i dont like Cher from the xfactor even though we all know she's gonna go through - shes so slappable when she sings, and when she sings she looks like Sylvester Stallone...

aaaaaaddddddddddddddrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!

(couldnt resist,lol)

and for the record, i hate cold play - and if your gonna rap it and add words like ring-a-dinging you really deserve some kind of pain.

                                                        peace out x

p:s;- i added more pics of me in this one, its been a while since ive has the opportunity to be a  web cam whore ;) x look, heres another one ;)     

                                  

ooh and before i forget, a photo of my home made christmas cake that im currently 'feeding' with brandy before starting the icing process - ooohhhh yeah, not just a pretty face ;)

The Key to Weightloss....

Ive discovered the key to weight loss - its so simple really, and in some ways im sorry to have to say this, but the key to weight loss - the best way of melting away those lbs - is, unfortunately, diet and exercise. Sigh - anti climatic i know, but also very very true. This past week ive exercised my tushie off - every day i danced on my wii, and then following my blog post i WALKED the 2 miles into town (i know, walked!) it was up 3/4 of the way, and it was a walk i used to take regularly when i was a gym bunny (when i was made redundant i had to quit...bad times) and to be honest, at parts i found it tough - but i felt SO good knowing id done it! I then walked around tesco, and then went to a wedding on  the night - and can i say, i, me, MEL got up and danced. I never get up and dance at weddings etc, i cant really say why - its something im not sure of - self conscious i guess, but yep - i got up and danced and i was hot, and worked up a bit of a sweat along with everyone else. :)

So when, i stepped onto the scales on saturday morning, i'll be honest, i was feeling optimistic - but there was no way in hell i was expecting to lose 10lbs!!!!! so unfortunately, i can now say its true - exercising helps you lose weight - sorry to report that guys and girls ;)  however, who ever said exercise is good for you lied, judging by the aches and pains in muscles, exercise is the opposite of good for you! lol. This week im going back to work (sigh) but im still gonna im to go on my wii every night after work, im even looking into buying this ;

i know its meant to be scary hard, but in 20 min intervals i think i can handle scary hard? any reviews would be luvverly. thinking it may break up the monotony of just doing rhe same just dance game every night after work?

today ive set myself a challenge, i have the claire from steps work out dvd - the one with the army guys (swit swoooo) and ive never got more than 10 mins in - hardly good, but it is a toughie - and when ive tried it before ive never felt this motivated to feel the burn, soo - my challenge is to put that dvd on and do at least 30 mins!! i shall report on my progress on that one later this week.

so yeah, motivation wise - times are good my friends, times are good :)

                             peace out x

Hello new me!! :)

Well hello there avid blog readers. long time no...erm... soliloquy-esqe discourse on my part ;) truth is, last week went down the pan big time for me - you could say life got in the way - you could say i had somewhat of an emotional breakdown, you could say it was a lil from column a and a little from column b. To cut a long story short, i gained - and then in a way that turned out to be a positive as this week ive been a pointing AND exercising machine. Ive been on a weeks hol from work, and have made a real effort to burn off some extra calories by, well, moving :) ive tidied my room and ive played on my wii just dance game for at least 30 mins a day, and playing that ive given it my all and got a real sweat on each time, im also rather achey in the shoulder department.But - and ive never said i was normal - i love that pain. Because i know ive done something - thats why yoga etc never worked for me, because if im gonna exercise i better damn well feel it afterwards - its why i think id fair ok on The Biggest Loser, im some what of a masochist ;)

Life itself has turned somewhat dramatic of late, in july my parents went to mexico and my dad had a seizure, he had one 4 years ago and they found no explanation for it, just called it a grand mal seizure and life went on. Well this time they sent him for lots and lots of tests, measuring brain waves and what not, and he's been diagnosed with Epilepsy. Were currently waiting on the results to see if its photosensitive but we dont think it is, and he's gonna be medicated for life. So of course, were all making jokes about this - I know this sounds harsh, but Dads cracking jokes too - its kinda the way our family operates.

Next, and last (thankfully) on the dramatic incident hit list is this. My dad works as a security guard in a shopping centre (the same shopping centre that me and mum work in shops in - its a family affair,lol) and he is also the first aider. Yesterday a lady collapsed in the centre and dad was called to her, he did cpr till the ambulance arrived but they lost her :( :( its so so sad, and its shaken my dad up a whole lot (understandingly) rip that lady, im so so sorry :( and so so angry that people felt the need to STOP and WATCH and GATHER around my dad when he was trying to save your life. Seriously - it took another security guard to usher people on, strangers were stopping gawping and taking away this ladies dignity - sometimes people make me sick :( :(
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.............On a happier note, ive had a life break through with some thanks and recognition going to my diet buddy, Ang. I'll use her words for this, but it;s exactly right and i couldnt have put it better myself (looks like she lucked out ;) ) we were discussing reaching our breaking points and she said

'its like, how long long are we gonna continue letting life pass us by?'

and its true really - so from here on in and im gonna lose this bloody weight and grab life by both hands. my weight loss goal is simple, the shop i get my piercing done in, and buy my flesh tunnels and quirky accessories and so on - they sell clothes too, but only in smaller sizes. Im gonna get a t-shirt from there dammit, and im gonna look gooooooooooddddddd :) )

                                                                   peace out x

(p.s:- sorry for the distinct lack of pictures in this post - i wasnt really sure what to put,lol)

What can I say? I suck.

grrr, hello binge eating mel, this weeks been tough, im doing a dodgy shift at work and i dont get a break, so im going from 9:30am until about 5pm without food, so when i get home im starving and ive snuck over points every evening this week, and the sad thing is ive really been trying. and today im a eating machine, so i guess fresh start tomorrow? sigh.

this morning i got in the taxi to work (mum and mine shifts started at the same time and ) rrrrrriiiiiippppppppppppppppp!!! oh my word, super embarassment - and im talking from waistband to down, and i cant even blame my weight - they are looser now than they were, well they were looser - now they are in the bin, so i got out the taxi, tied my cardigan around my waist and told mum to tell work im sick - theres a tummy bug going round, and yes i feel awful but it was necessary - 15 minutes later i was on the bus into town, then i had to get an eco bus to the retail park and to evans and i bought 2 pairs of trousers (one in a size smaller than i am) as they were two for £25, then eco bus back into town, and then bus home - so i couldnt have worked, it took me 2.5 hours to go and get some blooming work trousers, thus - im not happy -  but it could have been worse, they could have gone in work - oh my god, id have cried :( so i treated myself to the red hat i saw 3 weeks a go and talked myself out of buying but havent been able to stop thinking about since :)

erm... comme ci comme ca times i guess??

                                                                 

                                                                      peace out x