Hello new me!! :)

Well hello there avid blog readers. long time no...erm... soliloquy-esqe discourse on my part ;) truth is, last week went down the pan big time for me - you could say life got in the way - you could say i had somewhat of an emotional breakdown, you could say it was a lil from column a and a little from column b. To cut a long story short, i gained - and then in a way that turned out to be a positive as this week ive been a pointing AND exercising machine. Ive been on a weeks hol from work, and have made a real effort to burn off some extra calories by, well, moving :) ive tidied my room and ive played on my wii just dance game for at least 30 mins a day, and playing that ive given it my all and got a real sweat on each time, im also rather achey in the shoulder department.But - and ive never said i was normal - i love that pain. Because i know ive done something - thats why yoga etc never worked for me, because if im gonna exercise i better damn well feel it afterwards - its why i think id fair ok on The Biggest Loser, im some what of a masochist ;)

Life itself has turned somewhat dramatic of late, in july my parents went to mexico and my dad had a seizure, he had one 4 years ago and they found no explanation for it, just called it a grand mal seizure and life went on. Well this time they sent him for lots and lots of tests, measuring brain waves and what not, and he's been diagnosed with Epilepsy. Were currently waiting on the results to see if its photosensitive but we dont think it is, and he's gonna be medicated for life. So of course, were all making jokes about this - I know this sounds harsh, but Dads cracking jokes too - its kinda the way our family operates.

Next, and last (thankfully) on the dramatic incident hit list is this. My dad works as a security guard in a shopping centre (the same shopping centre that me and mum work in shops in - its a family affair,lol) and he is also the first aider. Yesterday a lady collapsed in the centre and dad was called to her, he did cpr till the ambulance arrived but they lost her :( :( its so so sad, and its shaken my dad up a whole lot (understandingly) rip that lady, im so so sorry :( and so so angry that people felt the need to STOP and WATCH and GATHER around my dad when he was trying to save your life. Seriously - it took another security guard to usher people on, strangers were stopping gawping and taking away this ladies dignity - sometimes people make me sick :( :(
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.............On a happier note, ive had a life break through with some thanks and recognition going to my diet buddy, Ang. I'll use her words for this, but it;s exactly right and i couldnt have put it better myself (looks like she lucked out ;) ) we were discussing reaching our breaking points and she said

'its like, how long long are we gonna continue letting life pass us by?'

and its true really - so from here on in and im gonna lose this bloody weight and grab life by both hands. my weight loss goal is simple, the shop i get my piercing done in, and buy my flesh tunnels and quirky accessories and so on - they sell clothes too, but only in smaller sizes. Im gonna get a t-shirt from there dammit, and im gonna look gooooooooooddddddd :) )

                                                                   peace out x

(p.s:- sorry for the distinct lack of pictures in this post - i wasnt really sure what to put,lol)